Carolina Mommy

Okay, so I am still working my j-o-b. But, I have to wonder why. I don't get paid when I am supposed to and quite frankly my heart just isn't in it. My heart is torn out of me every time I have to leave my babies to go have people yell at me all day about why their orders are so ridiculously late. I truly am counting down the days, only 4 months, actual work days are only 70. I guess I shouldn't say "only" since 70 is a lot, but there is an end in sight. I just had to complete our 2nd progress report for Kindergarten, due tomorrow. Catherine has been doing well. I look forward to next year and being home with her & her sisters all day so that we can do so much more. She has surprised me so much with everything that she has learned. Children really are little sponges. I also just completed our family page for the yearbook, it is supposed to sum up our Homeschool year, I wanted to use a Bible verse, however my verse knowledge is still in the primary s

Okay, so this morning I was listening to Alistair Begg on WAGP and the whole "rat race" thing became clear. It is not so much the need to make time for the "important" treasures, but to find the moments in the middle of the race. "And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28 He is in control of where I am every second of the day. So when I am seeking after His will - when my will is that of the Lord's - then I am not in a "rat race" but in His will, fulfilling His purposes. My focus is on Him and and conforming my will to his. Which means a lot of checks and balances throughout the day of my flesh...

It has been a very hectic past few months. My oldest is now 6 and my middle child is 3, oh me, time is going by way too quickly! All followed up by my youngest turning 1 in October. eek! So the countdown started yesterday. I gave notice and my last day working outside of my home will be June 30th. Yes a long notice...but I felt like it was necessary. Even more necessary is for me to take on my God given role to raise up my children in the way they should go. I am excited and yet nervous. I am coming home to be a worker in my home - to the most important job that I could ever do! I definitely don't want to mess it up. So not only is the long notice for my current boss, but also so that I can prepare myself for all that awaits me. Things will definitely be changing in our household, but I am sure that they will all be for the better so long as we keep our gaze on Him.