Carolina Mommy

It always amazes me how God coincides things in my life. Things that really don't necessarily have much to do with each other. As you know I am on a weight loss journey (among the many other things I am working on). But I have also started a Bible study on having a heart like Jesus. While pondering and mulling over some questions in the study I couldn't help but to relate my christian walk to my weight loss. When we become believers in Christ, the Holy Spirit indwells us. We are made new! God loves me and wants all of my heart. Fortunately He shows me what I need to change in steps. I am so thankful that He does not throw the full book of what I need to change to have Jesus' heart. What an overwhelming feet! Just sitting here in this moment a mountain of things flood to mind and I am sure that in His mercy He has not shown me everything yet. But I need to focus on what He has shown me and one step at a time, moment by moment, day by day - follow Him! Now how this is related...

I have been pondering why I am trying to lose this weight. Mainly while I am walking/jogging on the treadmill. I used to read a book while walking, but with the increased speed it doesn't work out so well. (Actually it barely worked before as my coordination is not that great on a treadmill.) So lately I have used my time walking to talk with God and reflect, making it productive in more than one way. I have decided thus far that my main reason is because I just don't want to feel achy! I have always had back problems (lifting heavy things as a pre-teen/teen was not a great idea) but additional weight has definitely made it worse. I would also really, and I mean REALLY, like for my left leg get back to some sort of normal. Yes, doctors have told me that it is messed up forever and will always have residual issues. But, I still have hope that maybe one day my left calf and foot will more resemble my right. Now of course there are other reasons that swim through my mind....